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Y’all I am tired. So very tired. Sure, I am physically tired. For whatever reason I have suddenly been unable to sleep. Which is a major abnormality for me. Usually I fall asleep as my head hits the pillow. However more than physically tired I am mentally and spiritually tired. People keep asking me if I’m excited about my lover finishing school next year. I am. I’m excited. But more than being excited to be done I’m tired of being here. Tired of having a school schedule. Tired of reworking the budget for the hundredth time just to pay for the month’s rent. Just plain tired.

So Monday morning comes along, and I’ve been struggling with this mentality that I’m so tired, when I wake up and all I think about are the words, “come to Me, and I will give you rest.” I’m not even joking it was like Jesus was whispering in my ear. I rolled over in bed, convinced I was going to get just a few more moments of sleep, but in my head I could hear Him calling “come to Me, and I will give you rest.” Okay, okay. I’m up. I hurried through my morning routine, feeling more and more the tug on my hear to just come to Him, to just come to the feet of Jesus. I wanted rest so bad.

So I googled. Because I had no idea where to find those words in the Bible. Google lead me to Matthew chapter 11, where Jesus was talking and saying,

 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

So I’m thinking, score! This is the verse I am looking for. I love reading out of my Bible, because oftentimes in the footnotes it tells you about things that might affect the interpretation of the verse. For example, maybe in this verse it would talk about what a yoke was. That could be important, right? So I go down to the footnotes and I’m reading and it says things like this has great implications for the lost. Jesus is most probably addressing those who are trying to secure salvation by works. And on and on. Ugh. Not exactly my camp. Why oh why John MacArthur could you not just let me skip around in my happy world of theological incorrectness?!?!

But I was determined not to give up. After some further searching, I ended up in 1 Peter,

Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6 & 7

I needed those words so bad. Reading them felt like a balm for my soul. Like an exhale after holding me breath for too long. Almost like a cleansing. I love that it requires some action on my part, to humble myself under God, but that a promise in included. God cares for me. He cares for us.

Some seasons of life seem harder than others. Some seem to drain us of energy, sanity, patience to a point that it seems like we won’t make it. But we will make it, so long as we remember to humble ourselves to God’s will, and to cast upon His shoulders our cares. We can cast them upon Him with confidence, because He cares for us. Praise the Lord!