Well hello friends!
There has been much radio silence around this here little bloggy. That’s because I’ve not been my usual let’s-talk-about-nonsense-and-make-fun-of-life self. I’ve been fighting the urge to type out these ranting posts about all my pet peeves and all my worries and all these things that I don’t even want to read about, much less subject you to. This week however I was asked if I’m still doing this blog and I knew right then I needed to get my gluteus maximus in gear and get some things written down. Wednesday seemed just the day to do so.
(Sorry but this might be a toughy. I’ve been convicted.)
Let’s talk about prayer. I’ll go first. My prayer life stinks. I’m super good at remembering to thank God for things throughout the day and even throw up little prayers for patience or peace or whatnot. Not so good at sitting down with Jesus and having that deep, heartfelt, well-hello-there-best-friend-here-is-my-life conversation that I so desperately need and Jesus so desires to have. That time of communion with the Lord has been deeply lacking.
Enter 31 Days of Prayer by Ruth & Warren Meyers, stage left.
Ten days in, this book has already been a life-changer. I’ve been super blessed to have a darling friend who has committed along with me to go through this book. We meet together regularly and talk about all that we have learned, how we’ve changed our behaviors/attitudes in regards to prayer, and just plainly shared burdens with one another. It’s been amazing.
I shared with her, and now I’ll share with the world (because all the world is reading this blog, right?) what I learned on day 7. I have no idea what the title is for that day. All I know is what the Lord taught and is teaching me.
And it all has to do with my desires.
The Bible says this,
I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. Romans 12:1-2
I want you to focus in with me on the very first sentence. Paul beseeches believers to present themselves as a living sacrifice. According to Dictionary.com to beseech means to “implore urgently” or to “beg eagerly for.” Some translations use the word urge. This very intense plea I think show the importance of offering oneself up in service to the Lord, as a living sacrifice. An active, living, breathing sacrifice.
How does one become a living sacrifice? By daily, DAILY offering oneself up to Christ. To be used as his servant. Including everything. Talents, physical abilities, resources, your future, your desires.
For me, this word “desires” was becoming a stumbling block. Reading through day 7 in 31 Days of Prayer the thing that jumped at me were my desires. That they were just that. They were my desires. What I wanted. How I wanted my future to look. My deep, sometimes overwhelming desire to be a mother. Those were all mine. Not Christ’s.
The Bible says,
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Matthew 6:33
My desires should be to seek God’s kingdom first. Not to pursue my own desires. What I want. What I feel I need. My desire should be to further advance God’s kingdom. And that desire comes through daily giving up more of myself to Him. My prayer, in those intimate moments with the Lord, is for Him to mold my heart to His own. That He will remove my selfish, earth-driven desires and replace them with His own righteous and holy desires. That I will be more like Him. That I will be less like myself.
I’m giving my desires over to the Lord.